I Said ItThe words flew out,after years of denial,repression and prayer.A warm chill consumed my person,as much as a contradiction as I feel.I gasped at what I had done.Why did I do it?Why did I tell HIM??Why am I even asking these questions?For the first time in years,I feel good.Really good!I want to shout it from the top of this little townand yet I feel more repressed than ever.I realize the consequences of my actions,of my words."I'm gay".
A Story Of A PansexualThe Journey of Pansexuality For MeAlot of my life,anything that wasnt hetrosexual was wrong.I struggled,wondering what I really was,while I was raised up around the opposite gender.Soon my doctor told me I devolved a gender identity disorder,which meant I would grow up with the mind of a boy,and the body of a girl..I struggled with it a long time,constantly made fun of at school,constantly alone,I wasnt welcomed by boys because my body was a girl,I wasnt welcomed by girls because my mind was a boy.I was teased about being a hermaphrodite,yet oddly didnt mind..When I found out about what it was,I would listen to them tease me,and then I smile,thinking at least I know what I am now.Each day as I grew,homeschooled since 5th grade,I continued to force myself to love males only.I knew if I didnt,my father would literally harm me,and I would be shunned again.But the more I explored as I got older,I thought maybe I was bisexual,when I tested it,It di
EnoughSmart enoughto pretend to be something I'm notfor my own safetyProud enoughto not bash who I amfor approval