I Said ItThe words flew out,after years of denial,repression and prayer.A warm chill consumed my person,as much as a contradiction as I feel.I gasped at what I had done.Why did I do it?Why did I tell HIM??Why am I even asking these questions?For the first time in years,I feel good.Really good!I want to shout it from the top of this little townand yet I feel more repressed than ever.I realize the consequences of my actions,of my words."I'm gay".
A Story Of A PansexualThe Journey of Pansexuality For MeAlot of my life,anything that wasnt hetrosexual was wrong.I struggled,wondering what I really was,while I was raised up around the opposite gender.Soon my doctor told me I devolved a gender identity disorder,which meant I would grow up with the mind of a boy,and the body of a girl..I struggled with it a long time,constantly made fun of at school,constantly alone,I wasnt welcomed by boys because my body was a girl,I wasnt welcomed by girls because my mind was a boy.I was teased about being a hermaphrodite,yet oddly didnt mind..When I found out about what it was,I would listen to them tease me,and then I smile,thinking at least I know what I am now.Each day as I grew,homeschooled since 5th grade,I continued to force myself to love males only.I knew if I didnt,my father would literally harm me,and I would be shunned again.But the more I explored as I got older,I thought maybe I was bisexual,when I tested it,It di
EnoughSmart enoughto pretend to be something I'm notfor my own safetyProud enoughto not bash who I amfor approval
P is for PANSEXUALWhy is it every time I see the good ol' "LGBT" acronym extended to LGBTQAS and so on so forth..But rarely so I ever see a "P" thrown anywhere in there?Are we not a part of it? Do people still see us as bisexual? It's not like I'm asking for much, I just wish more people had knowledge of the "P". And that more would acknowledge the "P". We're real too. And as a "P" I would like to see it included as folders in more groups I'm in and see. I would like to see and hear the "P" included in that long standing acronym for "FREEDOM". Not much to ask. Even when professionals of LGBT youth organizations use the "full" acronym, rarely do I hear a "P" in it.So, what gives?Do we not count anymore?Are we just "bisexuals with perks" now?I would love to know, really, why is it so hard to remember us and acknowledge us?And further more, include us.That's all this little "P" here is asking for. Acknowledgement. Cause this little "P" fights for the rights and futures all gays, lesbi